I went back to teaching yoga this month. It wasn't an easy decision; leaving Luca in someone else's care. But when you tell enough people you're going back to teaching in July... I suppose you just got to do it.
During the last days of June, I kept asking myself if it was worth troubling others just so I could teach 2 hours a week; an hour on Friday mornings and an hour on Tuesday evenings. For me to teach that 1 hour at RTC on Fridays, Dave needs to carpool and I have to leave Luca with my folks' maid and grandpa... yes.... just for THAT 1 hour. Oh! Not to mention, I'm also indirectly troubling Dave's colleague as well! And on Tuesdays evenings, Dave got to rush home so he could take over Luca (at a time when he's most cranky). It gets even harder to justify when I teach 1 hour and my transport to and fro is almost 2 hours. Big sigh.
It's been just over 2 weeks now, and this week was better than last. The first week was tough; I couldn't stop feeling stressed and guilty for leaving Luca, especially during the evening time when he needed me to cuddle him before bedtime. It didn't help that he cried (45 minutes!!!) to sleep during my first night away from him, and he was soooo tired from all the crying that we could not wake him up for his midnight feed. 11 hours without milk... scary! Poor daddy.... Dave was just as stressed! There was an improvement this week though! Luca cried for a much shorter period of time-25 minutes. I'm sure we'll all fare better next week!
It's great to have such a supportive family. I can actually look forward to classes now.
